Oh my mama, help!

Today is like a total horrid band day.

Before band starts, some of my seniors wanted to talk to me. They knew about me wanting to quit band. Ah! I think they were trying to convince me to stay in band. But they didn't really force me to stay luh. I just don't want to disappoint them..

And it got worse. During practice, Daniel (the guy who wanted to quit too) and I were called to the band room to talk to Mr Zat. (band instructor) Then I was like damn scared cause he is very scary and fierce ok. But he asked us to find Mrs Audrey Ho (teacher in charge of band) to talk to her. Cause both Daniel and I asked our parents to call her to tell her we wanna quit. Walao, Mrs Ho is like damn scary ok. asked us why me wanna quit. She asked me if it was stress. I was like: kinda. Then Daniel said that his grades were dropping. And blah blah blah. She also said that if we wanna change CCAs we must wait till next year until all the sec 1s have chosen their CCAs. And we cannot choose our own CCAs. They will just dump you in any CCA which has vacancy.

Ok so after that we returned to the band room. Mr Zat asked us what she said. Then we told him and blah blah. He was nice to us but I know inside, he is fuming. He just wanted to be nice cause he knows if he scolds us, we will want to quit even more. And I told him I will try to do my best.

And God, even worse later. I received a message from Justin (my section leader), asking me why I wanted to quit. GAH, WHY DOES EVERYBODY KNOWS?! Then I told him maybe I won't be quitting already. He was like: '... tio scolded by Mr Zat for this. (smiley face) ' I was like: 'HUH? WHAT HAS THIS GOT TO DO WITH HIM?!' But he didn't want to tell me. So I apologized to him.

I feel damn, damn bad la. This is like, all my friggin' fault. Damn, I can't get this off my mind right now.

From now on, I wonder if Mr Zat will torture Daniel and I. The reason he will: Cause he knows we hate band, and doesn't have any interest in it. The reason why he won't: He's scared that we will quit.

Another thing is that during the holidays, practically every weekday has band. Very sickening. So many self-practices. What shit ok. HATE IT. But I must tell myself: 'I must learn to love band.' Lots of seniors hated band and wanted to quit when they were sec 1 too. But now, they are still in band and they love it. It's like their family or something.

Oh and the stupid old man is probably gonna teach us the whole class maths next semester. Oh dear, it means more homework and more homework. I seriously hate him! Miss Leong is so much better than him ok. And she's leaving the school soon. ):

Oh, help. Seriously, I think I'm going to die. ):